Oversensitive m3

I am sitting in my room now try to figure out am i too sensitive or not.. sigh.. or i am thinking too much.. sumtimes i lock up myself in my room n then i try to think tat i have no frens.. sumtimes my fren ask to go here n there i decline n start to feel lonely... weird rit??
Liying say i din try to feel other's feeling.. isit true?? Am i tat selfish?? When there r too many voices in my mind, i cant make a corect desicion.. i am hesitating.. hesitate when my fren met sum prob.. shud i help?? or shud i jz do my own thing?? i jz cant be normal me..
So now.. i feel that i dun have any real fren.. What does fren actualy mean?? I have no idea.. i am trying to b good n to be natural but mayb ppl thing tat i am fake.. ( see how much i think in my mind)...
Or mayb i am expecting too much from my fren.. aiks.. i have to stop my mind of thinking all this nonsense..
mayb i shud learn how to b independant..how to live alone n b a lone ranger i think.. Liying say i have a pampered life b4 so now i am still acting like a kid... hmm.. she is right but i am also trying to change.. trying to b mature..
Like wad saek said to me.. chnages are always around, i jz have to open my heart to adapt it.. sounds easy but i duno i can do it or not..
am i too sensitive or wad?? when i c ppl can gathered around talking or laughing around i start to think a lot.. how many ppl can understand my feeling??

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Woke up this morning n i found i overslept ad.. i faster made a wake up call for him n heard a JIA YOU from him, wad a sweet beginning of my day.. Now i have to turn my concentrate on him so that i can feel more pleasure here.. :)
Unfortunately, after i fin my bath n preparation, they all said the class is cancelled.. WTF.. so, i decided to post a lil thing here.. hehe.. Still.. my heart is sorrow bt i think it will over soon.. -.-
Yet.. its evening time n i feel damn damn boring.. oh my godness.. all my fren(closed fren) went home ad.. my roomate n dear jing mei both of them r rily PBSM(persatuan balik setiap minggu).. ACtually i am also la.. haha..
I sleep from 12noon to 3pm then wake up doin nothing but starring on the moniter.. damn damn boring life here.. Some of my fren brought a car here but they are not as playful as me, or mayb in the other word, they r ok with the life here.. So, they r less going out. Even they r going out, they wont ask me to bcoz i am not close wit them.. haih..
I dunno am i a sociable person or not.. Mayb i am a nerd, a not very approachable girl.. But think back me secondary life, I a,m actualy a very approachable n frenly gal. Why am i change into a very weird gal.. Am i thinking too muc or perasaan to muc??
Well, Liying say better hide up our own emotion. Isit true?? If its true then i will die soon..